I attend celebrate recovery. No shame in it. i struggle with certain probs, insecurity, anger, frustration mainly. In the past month, Jesus has been working on my heart. As far as anger goes, ive had to let this thing go. Now, last year, i viewed the 2nd year interns as these impermeable beings, that couldnt be shaken. guess what, ive seen them (most of them) in the roughest times. they bleed and hurt just like normal human beings. so i feel free to share about this aspect.
i used to let anger define my personality. i used to let the hate and grumpiness determine who i was. yeah, i can paste on a smile from time to time, but all in all i was angry. getting teased while i grew up, i soon found that if i fight back and sucker punch someone in the sternum they’d think twice. try that now, and i’ll find myself in OCJ faster than i can say the words behind those acronyms.
I once heard someone say that “homosexuals base their whole entire life around that one aspect, of them being who they are.” so what am i going to do? talk like an angry person, act like an angry person, be the irratable one in the cafeteria when i woke up late and got to breakfast 35 mins after it started?
i once was the guy who was pissed off, i once was the guy who let anger control my life. i once got a rush out of scaring people. both biblically and worldly its not liked. Don’t let the sun go down while you are still angry. Its not right to carry your burden full of anger. as far as people in the world, i tend, and have pushed good people away because of my anger mask. trust me, in the long run, its not fun and it doesnt pay off.
